Finally got my computer working. Lets hope it stays that way. I'd hate for it to start going crazy again.

Today was my mothers baby shower. Lots of people, lots of gifts. It was great, and I can't wait for June to come. Moms having a girl, btw.

Week went good, I missed my AIM buddies, though. Hope they missed me, that would suck if they didn't!

Weirdest thing happened on Friday though. Jason kissed me. Now, I know it meant absolutely nothing, and it was most likely because Nikki had her camera out, but I still wish he didn't do that. I'm not strong enough for those silly things. :(

So, for I while I thought he was different. Thought he wasn't like Jason.. or Alex. Heck, even Laz gets honorable mentioned. I find it amazing how it is ALWAYS THE SAME STORY! Over and over and over.

Boys suck. The End.

My pillow has absorbed one tear to many.

My sister moved to Florida this week. Stage one of the big changes that will be happening in my life. I fear for the next few stages. But, I can't do anything to stop them so why try to? Why choose fear?

Then I think of him and all my thoughts of fear and change disappear. I find myself daydreaming a lot lately. About how it would be to be with him. To touch him. To hold him. To kiss him . . .

^^Heh, It took me 10 minutes to write that. Daydreaming again. On a less personal note I got everything I need for my outfit for the 80s dance. I think it looks sexy. Natalia and I have been listening to so much music lately to make sure we get the right stuff for the DJ to play. Ah, I so can't wait. It's going to be awesome! Hopefully the dance will be May 5. That's the date the student council, which I strangely found myself attending today, is pushing for. Whee!

Another thing that excites me even more than the dance is what will happen on May 26. Yes, that's right... X3! Oh my. I can not remember the last time I was this excited for a movie. I've been counting down the days since last March. I hope I can see it opening day. Then a few times after that. I'll most likely see it with my family. Then again with Darcy and Billy. Maybe once with a few other friends. And again alone. I'll make sure and carry and extra pair of pants. I know I will explode down there.. yeah.

X-Men in May. Only a week after will be Prom. Don't even know what I'm wearing. Then June 27 is the day I will be graduating. And somewhere in between all of this, my little sister or brother will be born. Life is so intense right now. But I know things will work themselves out.

I think I'm done. . .

X3 In 2 months!

Haven't updated this thing in a while. So, here goes. . .

I feel like time flies by so fast. It's already March, going on April. Soon it will be June and my High School days will be over. I just feel like I'm not ready. I know I want to go to Parsons more than life itself. And I know that most of my friends will be there as well, but something just feels wrong about leaving all this behind. Maybe I'm just crazy.

To think that in a matter of months I'll be in college. I'll either move out or stay home, depending on who excepts me. My sister will be in Florida. They'll be a new baby at home. My mom will probably get married. So much in so little time. Everything is changing so fast, and I feel like I can't get a hold of it all.

Is it wrong that instead of being happy and excited for all these great things, I'm just annoyed and scared? And also a bit selfish because all I ask is for someone to share these things with? The want is filling up inside me and it's suffocating. I wish I could stop feeling this way. It would do me so much justice. Jason, Alex, Laz, Emilio etc. To all of them I give a big meh. Meh!

Tomorrow I have my Pratt interview! Holy crap.. I'm nervous. I'll be fine, I'm sure.

More importantly, I'm going to Comic Con this weekend! Whee! Can't wait. Laz is taking me. He's cool. I'm oh so excited.. teehee.

A nice vacation from the world this week. I hope it all goes great. Sleep is needed. Yes.

I also have two college interviews this week. One this Wednesday for Pratt and another this Friday for Parsons. I'm eager to go to my Parsons one. And unbelievably nervous.

Then, I'll be back to school next Monday.. and, errm... I have another date with Alex. Lets hope this one is more than just a sorry attempt.

I don't know what the future holds for Alex and I. I wish things were different between us, but it isn't.

So goes the story of my life. Boys always leave before they even get here.

Alex stood me up.

We were supposed to meet after school. He never showed.

I guess I'll make this my first 'official' entry in LJ land.

This week has been pretty cool. I sent in my portfolio and home test for Parsons School of Design (anyone who watches Project Runway knows what school this is). I also set an interview with Parsons on Feb. 24. Man, this is exciting. I absolutely love this school. I want to get in oh so badly.

I also started buying comics again this week. I picked up Ultimate X-Men 66. They're indulging in the Phoenix saga and I'm eager to see how they handle it. I'm a little confused because the last issue I bought was #57. But, I'll catch up. I also picked up Astonishing X-Men #s 10 & 11. I'm trying to catch up so I'll be ready when #13 comes out this month! Whee!